childlike93

i remembered vividly once that i was running under the heavy rainpour. i ran so fast without getting tired. and, i attempted to do this again today. but, i got tired after a few rounds. umm. perhaps when human met danger, they will run as fast so to avoid the death ahead of them.

sometimes i ponder to myself why are things so realistic in this society. nothing can be compromise, everything are created that you cannot compromise anything if not you have to face the outcome. that's tiring.

God created the heaven and earth so much so that He forsee what are going to happen.

whenever i am walking alone down the road, i will start pondering what's God plan for me. and, i even start predicting and go with the way i predicted. well, but God always show me that i cannot follow my route of prediction. eventually, it's not what God wants me to be. and, when God shows HIs wonders power, i just stunned.

umms.. God just planned everything so wonderfully. He's a wonderful marker of the earth. :D

i love sunday. sunday is always the day when i start to replenish my sleep. and, it's always the day when i have the most difficulty of getting my butt out of my bed. tht's amazing how God created my sunday. but the bad thing is that every sunday, i will defintely have a very long TO -DO list to complete.

i think my life is full of too many TO- DO list that i get so drain up easily. can life be more than all those things? why can't we just stay in this earth without any burden. ums, if there isnt any burden, it's not called earth. it's heaven . :X

yes, tmrw is my OBS. it's going to be a 5days without hanging out with my caregroup and without reading bible. umm. I pray that God will refresh me during the camp even though i cannnot get to read HIs words for me.

it's too complex and difficult to predict the outcome. so, i must as well just stand still and follow God designed path for me. (:

school is getting more and more tedious. workload is getting more and more hectic and tough. it's so draining. since school reopens, i am getting so busy with my surrouding. hais. busy is indeed a dangerous word. sometimes, you don't know if you're busy doing good things or bad things. :X

OBS is just next week. i think i will become a roosted pig when i am back from that torture camp. for those people who know me well, i hate going for camps beside church's. i remembered vividyly that last year i kept praying for changing of stations asap while we were doing high elements.

ohyes, the greatest thing on earth is that lowruijun don't know how to swim. and, i can't imagine myself going to kayak for 6fat hours without knowing how to swim. i think the best thing now the prepare is a coffin for me. arhhh ! okays, i sound rather persimistic. but, i just can't stop myself from thinking it. :X

but the good thing about going OBS is that we can skip many tests. *CLAP CLAP* and, of course we can get to learn our strengths and weakness and bond together with my new classmates. talking about skipping tests, there's alot tests coming up after OBS. and guess what, few days after OBS is chinese new year. goshhh ! that's insaneezxzxz !

okay, my blogger is pretty screwed up. so, i decided to change to livejournal. hha.

this week is a very hectic week for me. i just cannot believe that it's just the third week of school and yet im out every single day. haha. but God is still faithfull to me. ;D yay.

despite those hectic workload, God reminds me the importance of loving people. and, i just felt so bad about how i treated you this week. and while i was flipping through my sermon notepad and came across pastor jasmine's teaching.. it's say that christians always think that they're right. no, i must change this culture. christians are aint perfect. we are saved by Jesus blood. christians also do make mistakes. 
and yes, sorry. ;X

i think i must learn to say sorry whenever i do wrong things and don't allow my pride to overthrow me. haha. argh, but it's irritating when people scold you for no good reason. it something just getting onto my nerve. > : (

tis week service was great. haha. seeing how people surrender their lives to worship God, it really touches my heart and give me an urge to worship along with them. HAHA. and, i did. tht's cool okays ! (:

ohyar, i spent my whole evening blog hoping. and came across some posts which really touches me. as i was thinking that  i am very bad situation, there are people out there are more busy than me. busy preparing tournaments, schools, and ministry. agosh. i am just a peanut of them. 

i think sometime we have to look at things at a wider perspective so you won't stuck in your own pace. when things get so screwed, you start giving up hope. ha. but, other people who were so much more busy than us actually never give up any glimpse of hope in completing their task and responsibilities. they are just great people of God. impressing ! 

okay, im kind of worry about my chinese test. well, i really did my best and God will defintely do the rest. dont know what's the problem with me. i dont have any burden for my studies yet  im starting to worry about my O lvl. has. that's kinda early. but, i dont like the overwhelming of stress when exams drawing near laaaa. ;D

god, i pray that despite what result i got at the end of the day, i will still hold on you.